Scenes, Deadlines & Title

During the whole process I have found out that I am better in writing emotional scenes than scenes that are just there to connect everything. When writing the emotional scenes, I can actually place myself in the position of the protagonist and feel the phase that she is going through as if I am living it myself. It is so real and costs me so much energy, that sometimes I am completely exhausted after writing it! It also makes me feel like I want to take some distance from what I just wrote.

May 1st, the deadline, is approaching fast all of a sudden. When I promised my friend 150 pages to take to the publisher, I might have been slightly overoptimistic. Right now I have written about 80 pages. I will do my very best to finish the 150, but in the end I think it is more important to deliver a good story than quantity.

Yesterday I have found another novice writer through Twitter, or better said, she found me. She has found a publisher already and is working on the cover of the book now. That made me think again about a title. Right now the story still has very uninspiring titles like 'version 1.1', 'version 1.2' etc. I want to make sure that I do not overwrite something without being able to go back to the way it was written before. After all, the book has had several beginnings already. Anyway, I trust on the fact that a title will come up somewhere, somehow... Love, M.

Milestone

- Writing is a verb -

Last week I have reached my first milestone: the first ten chapters of my book are finished! Okay, they still need to be rewritten and some things might need to be added, but considered all this, it feels pretty good to have completed this part! All of a sudden it is the beginning of a real story with body, where characters come alive. The good thing about the way I started, with writing short stories per chapter, is that I have already written some material to use later on in the book.

Apart from writing I still keep on doing research per topic. Still looking for tips on how to improve myself as a novice writer as well. I keep on searching for information, confirmation and input to check if I am still on the right track. The question came to mind: 'What makes a novel a GOOD novel?' Well, that depends on who you ask, as it mostly based on personal taste. Of course there are guidelines and formulas to write a book, especially a novel. A great website to consult for this is www.schrijvenonline.org with many forums and tips from professional writers. Another thing I am doing at the moment is rereading novels, with the eyes of a writer this time, to analyze them.

I have summarized tips and personal opinions of readers and came to quite a list. Are you ready? Here it comes! A good story: needs to be original, unpredictable, exclusive and credible, has lively characters, is written in clear language and a fluent way, triggers emotions with the reader, gives the reader something to think about, has to have continuity, contains some threat, mystery or suspense, 'draws' the reader into the world of the book, challenges the reader to come to new insights, provokes the imagination of the reader, shows good research and, last but not least, seduces the reader to read it more than once... Still a long way to go, but I am enjoying the view along the way!, Love, M.

Eureka!

The best ideas I ever had were always born during nightly hours. Few nights ago, at 3.30 AM, it all of a sudden clicked in my mind! Suddenly it became crystal clear how I should connect the different story lines, how to model the book. Do you know the feeling being in the middle of reading a great, interesting book and not being able to put it aside? That is exactly how I feel about writing now. I simply cannot stop anymore! Words, sentences, paragraphs, chapters... it feels like they have been there all along and suddenly got the start sign to come out.

So household, social events and social media are all on hold (never having too much trouble with the first one, by the way): I am a writer with a mission now. With new self- esteem and a clear story to tell. The comments of my friends did me lots of good as well. It gave me just the confirmation I was looking for. What is nice as well is that these people actually know what I am working on now. I have created expectations, on purpose. Now it is up to me not to let people down. Exciting!

The one who has not read anything yet is my Italian friend, on who's life the novel is based. In the whole process, this might be the most scary step I have to take: letting her read it. Even scarier than handing it to a publisher. Will she be happy with the way I describe her, her life story and the people in her life? Of course I have chosen fiction to be able to add, enlarge or leave out things to make the story more interesting, but in the end it is about her and the people around her. Maybe you can imagine this idea makes me pretty nervous. That will be the test of all tests. But first... some more writing to do! Love, M.

A Push, Comment & Boost

Every writer has his/her own speed and structure to work. Some are very disciplined; they write a steady number of hours or words each day. I also intended to do that, but unfortunately, that kind of structure and discipline just isn't me. Sometimes I am writing several hours a day, other days I do not put one word in writing. Go with the flow, that's typically me. The good thing is that I am not bound to any deadlines yet, so I can take it easy. But easy is usually no good for me, I know from experience. When deadlines appear in sight, that's when my mind works full speed. That is when I am most creative and productive!

Last week a friend of mine asked me how much I had written so far. Good question, because, as I am writing on more than one storyline and chapter 'at the same time', it looks more like a jigsaw puzzle than a book at the moment! Was I interested in letting a publisher have a look at it and give some specialized feedback, was his next question. Ok, now he had my full attention! What is more interesting than to have an expert give feedback on your work? What a wonderful opportunity! So when would I be ready, he kept on pushing. I hesitated a little more to give a hard commitment at once; I had to think carefully about what would be doable. Few minutes later we agreed that I will hand him 150 pages by May 1st and he will take it to the publisher. This was exactly the push I needed!

I found out last week that it is pretty scary to let someone read your work! I have given the first two chapters to few of my best friends to read. Friends that I trust to read it in a critical way and to give me serious feedback, not to spare my feelings. My objective is to make a great book, not to be flattered. As writing is something you very much do in your own small world, you simply don't see things anymore at one point. I got back some very valid and valuable tips that I will definitely process! Luckily the general description on what they had read so far was 'very cinematic', 'written in an attractive way' and 'I would like to read more'. This is what friends are for: a push, a comment and a boost at the right time! Tnx, my dearests! Love, M.

Adele

Insecurity has struck... Am I at all able to write a book? Still working on the first four chapters, I am trapped in despair at the moment. A lot of new books are being published lately. Successful Dutch writers are being interviewed on television shows about their latest novels. The way they describe the process of writing and the way they talk about the characters and the stories that have sprang from their brilliant imagination, make me wonder how I can ever measure up to these kind of people. Is this a normal phase to be going through being a newcomer?

Writing is as much a practical process as it is an emotional one, I have experienced already. No matter how much fantasy you have, how great the story is you have in your head or what kind of wonderful writing style you have, you have to be organized. Big time. You have to keep a very clear overview. You have to schedule. You have to structure. Not the best of my skills. You have to stay focused, otherwise you get lost. And that is exactly how I feel at the moment. It frustrates me and makes me wonder if and how I am ever going to finish this book. This morning however I came across one of the very first tweets of my favorite British singer Adele, saying:

'I don’t know what’s going to happen if my music career goes wrong; I haven’t had a proper job yet.'

That was June 27, 2009. Adele has launched two magnificent albums since. The first album sold 2.8 million copies worldwide and Adele definitely doesn't need to worry anymore about a 'proper' job anymore! Apparently insecurity is something we all have to deal with at one point in time. Not that I want to compare myself to Adele when it comes to being talented, but maybe I should stop worrying whether or how I will ever finish this book. I should stop wining and just write, as that is what I love to do. And listen to Adele singing whenever I feel insecure... Love, M.

'Mijmeren'

Never thought writing a book would be this confrontational... I can not find any rest! Somewhere in the middle of doing laundry, seeing friends, going to the dentist, practicing sports, being my son's homework coach, dinner parties, grocery shopping, planning the next family holiday, finishing reading a book, birthdays, keeping the house clean, reading the newspaper, choosing the right high school for my son, eating, sleeping, I have to find the time, rest and the peace of mind to write. Easier said than done. Start meditating, you might say now, start yoga classes or go to an ashram for a month (like a friend of mine will be doing soon). I always tend to think that I am to restless to do these kind of things :-). Do you think I am missing the point here?

When I am in the right mood/mode, I sit down, put my hands on the keyboard of my notebook and the inspiration and writing comes naturally. No problem. I even have the tendency to 'hyperfocus' and find it very difficult to stop once I am on the go. However... to get to that point is the problem. In order to be creative, I need to clear my mind from daily worries and schedules. When I was still traveling a lot (about three months a year), I was able to do that. I also have an urge to sometimes not be 'the mother of' or 'the wife of' for a while. To just be me, myself and I. Me, alone with my own thoughts. To hear myself think. To feel myself feel. Without being overruled by the noise of daily hassle. To be away from what to eat that night, school times, sports classes and obligations, as these are all distractions from what I really want: to write this book.

One of my all time favorite Dutch words is 'mijmeren'. The English translation 'daydreaming' doesn't cover the meaning of 'mijmeren' for me. 'Mijmeren' for me is opening a door to an inner, deeper layer of myself. A place where I can find creativity. Where solutions come to me. Where I suddenly know how a character will develop itself or how a storyline will continue. Sometimes I am able to 'mijmer' on Sunday morning, when husband and son are already downstairs and I am still in bed. Or at night, when all is quiet and everybody is sound asleep. The best way to 'mijmer' however is to literally break away for a while from everything and everybody. It is not for nothing that (song)writers and other creative people lock themselves up sometimes to create a new album, book or other works of art. In order to find a solution, I am either condemned to read the book 'Meditating for Dummies' or to plan another trip. I think I will opt for the trip. A trip just for 'mijmeren'. Soon. Love, M.

Back into The Flow...

Finally back into the flow of writing! After a busy period of birthdays, the traditional Dutch Sinterklaasavond, decorating the Christmas tree and shopping for Christmas presents, I'm completely caught up in the story of my novel again. I am full of inspiration to develop certain characters and storylines. Still struggling with the dialogues of my young protagonist Elena though... It is easy to reflect her character by actually letting her do things, but to give a 7-year old an 'interesting' dialogue with one of her peers is much more challenging.

I am picking my brain to remember which novels I have read with children's dialogues. The first titles that come to mind are 'Of Love and Other Demons' by Gabriel Garcia Marquez, 'The Kite Runner' by Khaleid Hosseini and 'I'll Steal You Away' by Niccolo Ammaniti. I definitely have to go through these books again to see how these writers have managed to give these young people dialogues that have really added something to the story. With a pile of snow outside, the candles lit and some nice bottles of wine in stock, that seems to be a good objective for one of these coming days! Love, M.

Parole, parole...

'Parole, parole'
- Italian song by Mina & Alberto Lupo (1972; English translation: 'Words, words')

The other day someone asked me if I am writing in chronological order or if I am writing separate chapters and then put the story together later. Good question! I did chop up the whole story in chapters and determined what I want to tell in the beginning, the middle and at the end of the story. The beginning of the book is important as it has to trigger the reader to read on. And yes, I started with chapter 1, continued with chapter 2, but soon found out that I had to explain more about the relations between the protagonists in the beginning (without falling into the trap of giving too much information!).

So I added a chapter in between and chapter 2 became chapter 3. The question of my friend made me think however. The last few weeks I have been researching the making of movies. A movie is never shot in chronological order, but in all different shots and then edited in the end. As a story has more than one storyline and several themes, it is very well possible to write a storyline that will show up somewhere in the middle of the book or even at the end. From today on I will have a good look again at those different storylines and themes to see what inspires me most at this moment to start writing on. This gives me a whole new perspective again. Thank you for that question!

Last week I have been struggling with dialogues. Not so much dialogues between the grown up characters in the book. Those seem to come pretty naturally. But if your protagonist is a 7 year-old, what kind of dialogue do you give her without boring a grown up reader? It can not be something very difficult she says at that age, but it still has to add something to the story or to the character. The title of the 1970's song 'Parole, parole' refers to hollow words and phrases. Even though I want to create a sense of time, I don't just want to 'touch' news facts without knowing the essence. So I still do research... a lot. Gaining much more information and knowledge than I probably will ever use in this book, but better that than hollow words and phrases!  Love, M.

Back to Basics & Curiosity

I am stuck! All the information I have written down, gathered and processed for my book so far is in different documents in my computer. Of course I have printed those documents and sorted them, but now I am looking at piles of paper that are not making any sense to me. Believe me, I couldn't do without my MacBook, Internet or blogging anymore, but writing a book simply is an old-school art. It is like creating a mosaic. With every piece it becomes more complete. After adding the piece, the figure may look completely different and gives you a different angle from which to continue. Creating a story is also like creating a good wine. It needs time to mature in your head, time to develop.

Using the computer is great, but it is like painting a painting while you can only see 1/8 of the fore-study. You miss the overview, no matter how you organize everything in folders in your computer. Time to get back to my writing tips and books to see how to control this chaos. Best tip: visualize! So yesterday I bought some basic white carton cards to write things down in the old-fashioned way. Next step is to buy myself a big bulletin board where I can pin all these cards with information on. Preferably using all kinds of different colors to group the information. And I need to start making choices, because I don't need ALL of that information! So back to basics.

This weekend Holland has lost one of her biggest writers ever. Harry Mulish died at the age of 83. I loved to hear that Mulish was always curious, even at an older age. Wanted to know about new technologies, about new developments in the world. I believe in that kind of curiosity. I believe it keeps your spirit young even when your body grows old. Always look up that one word you don't know the definition of. Find out what the precise story is about a historical fact, even if it happened way before you were born. If you don't like social media, don't use them, but at least look up how they work and try it, just once. Children are always curious. They can keep on asking you questions. Go back to that curiosity! Always, always, always be curious! Love, M.

Cash for Trash

Naples and suburbs are buried under mountains of garbage again, like in 2008. The legal garbage dumps have reached their capacity, garbage is simply not collected anymore and waste is spreading quickly around the city and especially the suburbs of Naples, home to the Camorra, the Neapolitan Mafia. The Neapolitan people pay higher fees to get their garbage collected, as the average Neapolitan produces more garbage than any other Italian. They don’t separate the garbage, unlike the people in the rest of the region (this became mandatory after the crisis of 2008, but a Neapolitan ‘doesn’t do laws’). The household garbage in Naples and suburbs includes plastics, glass, refrigerators, broken car parts and mattresses that are ripped apart. You can find the trash anywhere along the road.

For decades the Camorra is in control of the waste management. In the agricultural Campania region with its beautiful lush countryside this mostly consists of household garbage. The real lucrative business for the Camorra however is collecting waste from the industrial north of Italy. Including toxic waste. The rich industrial companies can cut major costs by selling their poison to the Camorra, who will then dump or burn it illegally in the countryside of Campania. Of course the north of Italy will always deny having any part in this 'typical problem of the South'. Pieces of land (bought of intimidated landowners) are being trashed, underground holes and quarries are filled with waste like heavy metals and asbestos. The toxic waste is also sold cheaply to ignorant farmers who use it as compost for their beautiful lemon orchards, olive groves, nut trees and crops…

Local politicians are either corrupted or intimidated and therefore not taking any action. Garbage men are sitting around playing cards and smoking. The lobby of the industrialists is too strong. The Neapolitan keeps producing lots of trash. The stench of Naples is becoming more famous than the precious monuments in the city. Cancer rates are higher in this area than in the rest of Italy. Laboratory tests are being falsified. And in the meantime the Camorra laundries money this way, benefits more from the waste ‘management’ than from drugs or human trafficking and gains more and more power. Money definitely stinks in this case. The Lancet already called this area the ‘Triangle of Death’. What ever happened to ‘Terra Felix’? It makes me sad… Love, M.